Midnight Movies

I am just going to point out that sometimes I have trouble sleeping, and I turn to the 2 am movie on A&E, Bravo!, TCM or Comedy Central to ease me into pleasant dreams. Well most nights, it is a remote controlled toss-up between Twins (TANGENT: TWINS may be my favorite childhood film. Danny Devito and Arnold Swartzenaggar as unlikely siblings...How can comedy resist ensuing? Also, I cannot resist singing "TONIGHT IS YOUR NIGHT....BRO!") and sometimes showing on several channels simulataneously, Coming To America ("TO BE LOVED...TO BE LOVED...OH WHAT A FEELING...TO BE LOVED!!!!").

But 2 nights ago, my the luck of my remote, I came upon Interview with a Vampire, a movie that may have been tolerable by a 12 year old Kimmie in 1998, but is frankly unwatchable by a 23 year old Kimmie in 2006. It isn't so much that I have changed, it is more the way the media has shaped my perspective. In case you lived in a bomb shelter over the last 12 years, you know that the movie stars Brad Pitt (of Brangelina fame) and Tom Cruise (of recent TomKat fame) as two scallywag vampires with not-so- luxurious blonde hair. I just couldn't even watch without thinking eww...Cruise had his brain drained by Elrod Hubbard and planted his seed into an unwitting Dawson's Creek star (not Pacey...God NO!) and Pitt left the most gorgeous woman in the world to become engaged to a possibly incestual nympho. Who could have ever seen this coming? I buy into it as much as the next guy (Lets just call a spade a spade....in a given day, I could have watched E! News Daily, Access Hollywood, ET (Entertainment Tonight...for those in the know) and Extra!). I just feel bad that these people that were once gifted actors have gotten their careers forgotten because they temporarily (LET'S HOPE!) lost their path!

After not being able to focus on the Vampire film, I transfixed myself on PeeWee's Big Adventure (another childhood favorite that for some ungodly reason was on Bravo! Yep...your guess is as good as mine.) After seeing my favorite scene ("No silly...there's no basement in the Alamo!") I discovered that this movie really wasn't for children. Hell...I probobly didn't even know what the Alamo was when I was 8...but I laughed. The whole thing was really creepy from Large Marge to the weird funhouse part. In this case I don't think it wasn't my skewed perception of the actor playing PeeWee. (Thankfully no one took him too seriously in the first place.)

Anyway...Moral to the story time. I think it is hard to pinpoint your favorite anything. I am constantly changing my mind as I learn new things and expand my horizons. I mean clearly Twins is no longer my favorite movie.

Reactions and Retractions

Sometimes I cannot explain the way that I react to things, because I react differently than most sane thinking individuals. I let things build upon me until I cannot breathe or see clearly and am usually not too honest with myself about what I really want or what I really need. At this juncture I go off kilter and snap into full on bitch mode over things which are out of my control. It is much easier to blame these things for my hostility than those things which I could have easily fixed. See I told ya, I react like a crazy person.

Today my thing I blamed was our broken VCR. Twice this week it has made me miss things that I really desired to watch. I guess it was easier for me to yell at it or my Dad for not telling me it was broken then to face the facts that my own shortcomings (whether apathy or atropy) have been the reason for recent unhappiness. In both situations, I got hyped up to watch something then got home and they were not there waiting for me. I guess I got mad because I am a big believer in signs and metaphors and the fact was, the thing I looked forward to didn't really turn out as expected. I want something waiting for me when I get home. Something more then my dog or my parents, I want me own things!

I know I am being vague, but the venting is kind of important. I never retract my gut instincts because i know in theory regret is a wasted emotion, but do I believe it fully? NO! I regret tons of things. Usually waiting too long or not saying something I should. Nothing really mind blowing brought on this realization- it all just came because I missed American Idol today and Oprah's interview with Vince Vaughn last week.